I have long been fashioning
an inner world of obstacles
between thee and me
shuttered huts of discouragement
barbed wire fences of habit
stone walls of indifference
mountains of indolence
and oceans of unfaithfulness

I'll plant a seed beneath my feet
someday
and breathe into it energy
someday
I'll firm its' soil with a dance
and pray the sky will shine its' lamp
I'll water it with heartfelt love and
someday, I'll awake...

I'll pack a bag beneath the stars
when someday comes
and grip it when the missiles charge
when someday comes
I'll tend to it with utmost care
and open it when I can share
a slavery to its' perfection
someday, I'll awake...

I'll cry because I have the faith
that man can change his ugly ways
I'll throwaway the bag and seed
for no one owns what we all need
I'll begin, without, within
searching, seeking, seeing
endless endeavors
				

Stray eyes staring at clouds that keep me turning
Gray skies burning our lives with flames of hurting
Reach for a hand my friend
Your home has never left you
Stained view; resin collects debris of crisis
Taste you; colors abroad with unseen logic
Reach for the sky my friend
and pull the clouds of being in sight and mind
Deep in the scales of your world at hand
balance the weight from the ground stance
Karma's plight
Sounds break; silence displays the lure of searching
Cries speak lessons of stolid war in the sneaking
Reach for a hand my friend
Your home has never left you
Reach for the sky my friend
and pull the clouds of crowds
Deep in the scales of your world at had
balance the weight from the ground stance
Karma's plight
Leeching the skirts of your feelings now strong
A blessing disguised in this time of growth
Karma's plight
				

I am winter dormant in my solitude
you are spring alive and with new growth
I am summer burning in my beatitude
you are fall shedding leaves grown old

just when the circle's drawn
just then the circle's gone
the circle's gone

I am petals found in frail wayside flowers
you are wind blowing bare open
I am sunlight showering the rays of play
you are sand soft yet hard as stone

just when the circle's drawn
just then the circle's gone
the circle's gone

merging with the land now
with all things
and all the beings
knowing I am one now
with my vision
with all the feeling

I am Winter, you are Spring
I am petals, you are wind

faith fills my inner space
clears my circle's place
turns me inside out
moves away my doubt

just when the circle's drawn
just then the circle's gone
the circle's gone

just when the circle's drawn
just then the circle's gone
the circle's gone
				

It all began with myself, the fragrant wisp of trials
Strolling through gardens blind, seeking a blossoms smile
A came upon a mortal dream, sougt its permanence
Caught a glimpse of a world fleeting from my conscience
I can feel a calling, I can heal this longing

I understood the amber swells, the ocean in my mind
I embraced tears that gave, the inner child a place
I live these lives with a course, and sailed uncarted sea
A blessing found in itself, foretold sacred release
I can feel a calling, I can heal this longing

The cycle begins, a constant bloom, no errors known
Just understanding, thoughts collide, confusion clears
There is but love, growth and change, never exchange
What is lasting, truth will never taint or spoil
Costumed in grace 
				

I long to live with some celestial beings
to adore in silence blissful friends
gliding into constellations of their smiles
melting into shining eyes

chant away
the cosmos grace
born inside the lotus gold

to be at the feet of celestial artists
close to the brush of their cosmic strokes
churning whispers into melodies of psalm
in timeless rhythms, blessed tones

chant away
the cosmos grace
born inside the lotus gold

I can live this revelation
with magnified devotion
magnified devotion
magnified devotion...

"Divine mother
Free my mind from all obstacles of delusion
And lead me safely to thy shores of fulfillment
Awaken within me increasing strength, positive thinking, courage, faith
And above all fill my heart
With thine unconditional love
With thine unconditional joy"

{This is a prayer by Paramahansa Yogananda, taken from a Sri Daya Mata
lecture, president of the Self Realization Fellowship}


    solo: Paul

I want to be closer to higher beings
near to touch those divine companions
gathering joyfully from the nether world
as I go through the portal's fold 
				

I long to live with some celestial begins, to adore in silence blissful friends,
Gliding into constellations of their smiles, melting into shining eyes
Chant away, the cosmos grace, born inside the lotus gold

To be at the feet of celestial artists, close to the brush of their cosmic strokes
Churning whispers into melodies of psalm, in timeless rhythms, blessed tones
Chant away, the cosmos grace, born inside the lotus gold

I can live this revelation with magnified devotion

{Divine mother free my mind from all obstracles of delusion
And lead me safely to thy shores of fulfillment
Awaken within me increasing strength, positive thinking, courage, faith... and above all, fill my heart within thine
Unconditional love, with thine unconditional joy}

I want to be closer to higher begins, near to touch those divine companions
Gathering joyfully from the nether world, as I go through the portal's fold 
				

Life, tired of what I call mine, so again
Dream, leaving the space I define, so again
So, craving for something new
No, answer the void with some clue
Waiting for time to become like fragile rain, falling from the sky
Looking for ways to believe that I 'm not the same, its all in my mind
Once in a while there's a child in your eyes and mind
Now that I know I'll be ready to go when you stay
Sun, shining its rays in my eyes, so again
Close, painful to see its not right
Dream, moving to places we change
Believe nothing is surging my way
Waiting for time to become like a fragile rain, falling from the sky
Looking for ways to believe that I 'm not the same, its all in my mind
Once in a while there's a child in your eyes and mind
Now that I know I'll be ready to go when you stay
You are the sun, shining light into dim mind
Facing it all I just want to move on and grow
Breathe, slow. 
				

Walking away now, taking your time, dreaming in circles
Finding your place now, once on the line searching for your well
Now that the doors been closed, I felt my shelter burning
I have no way now of getting back home, I'm finding the meaning now
She became the answer, she became the fire, her new world is burning
An old flame to you, a long road to you
Painful enchanter, naked and blind, sighing for warfare
Patron and dancer, can't seem to find, fighting for nowhere
Blaming your needs inside, minding the storm you churn to
I have no way of fighting your fight, that's something you must do
Walking away now, taking my time, dreaming in circles
Finding this place now, searching within, love is the answer
Starving the pain inside, I found my peace without you
I have a way now, of blessing this home miracles shine through now
				

My friend you know it's okay, don't you hurt yourself
The pain is the first grace, don't you know it's time
I tell you, keep it alive now, love is the chariot you ride
Two hearts, colliding pillows, will discover peace
Their minds in search of windows, without light to breathe
I tell you, keep it alive now, love is the chariot you ride
Far is the place now, that holds you in this time
Running for shelter, hiding yourself behind your life
Healing in all ways that casts you free in time
I don't believe, I can't believe, I won't believe, it's wrong
It's wrong, it's not wrong. 
				

Sometimes when I look at my life and the empty fighting,
I let go, no I'm not afraid, ashamed to cry
I hurt myself but I won't stop trying, I follow everyday living inside
Finally it's come, let it all go, all that I know
Finally it's right, every sight, not the same
Searching, looking into the mirror, that won't remember
Falling into something becoming blind
Trying why can't I see through the clearest weather
Leave me here with all of my light to shine
Finally it's come, let it all go, all that I know
Finally it's right, every sight, not the same
Turn the pages now, running around, all that I found
Looking out I see, inside of me, just this day
I keep it alive, knowing that soft subdues the hard way
A feeling of faith so new, a silence inside
Bringing me home without the heartache
Love is the place for you.