In those times, to allow the population to doing their lives, in peace and harmony, there was an only solution, it has been decreed that all the nurslings had to be made killed...
By XY-TÄH during a period of hundred years, and nobody could do anything against it
But XY-TÄH was only a contribu...
...tor, he in fact obeyed D-ÄN's orders.
D-ÄN was the machine which commanded...
 XY-TÄH 
				

My only friend's room is empty now.
Two men put me inside.
The biggest door closes it's back to me.
Mouth open, eyes in the sky...
I'm a prisonner of my anguish,
Of my corpse (of my own hypnotised mind).
I can see her near me like a remembering.
Her hands poised on me make me suffer.
I kick my face to banish her picture from me for Self-deliverance.
I try to go out when I can see her smile.
The fall is too long,
The fight too hard and in a worried spring her face Evaporates from my mind
(I'm shouting !!!)
I measure my lenght on the bed that seems like mine.
I try yo remove my straps,
But there's nothing.
Anthea comes into my room.
The sweet sound of her voice can be heard...
All of this was but a dream ! 
				

In the time it takes a thought to pass by, it was already yesterday. When this phenomenon started, I dismissed it as coincidence or déjà vu, but when the following day approached, I could see that it was the day before yesterday... the same actions replayed by the same people in the same moments as before... Right now, it's the day before yesterday... I don't understand any of it. At one time my life was peaceful, perhaps too peaceful... But all has changed. 
				

Now I am gone the people as come, I am reassured so I fly
from my earthly remains so fast it's a blur, it's breathtaking.
Then I hear an unpleasant dull hum.
Other presences around me but I am unable to see or feel them
Just harsh shrill sounds that come closer.
My Ka enters my body again but feels different.
So pray for us poor dead sinners. 
				

There is a deformed army, all around me...
Discerning clearer now my eyes
The carapaces glisten in the light
And tangled limbs lie inert
all around me...
There's a deformed army
Discerning clearer now my eyes
And tangled limbs lie inert
The claws serrated darkened in shadow
all around me...
there's a deformed army 
				

We cry out but no-one hears
The star furnace dries our tears
Deadly rays absorbed somehow, iconoclast
This white star that purified,
that becam our dark, our dark new god
Cleans our thoughts from the past-times,
no more link to ties of blood
It was a dire price that they paid
So we could feed on light, they said !!
Devour our fathers, that's where it led...
Devour our fathers, that's where it led...
The neovocyts that are fed by light,
Feel no wrong nor right
In that baleful light, far from wrong or right
far from wrong or right...
no wrong nor right...
no wrong nor right...
no wrong nor right...
no wrong nor right...
But stood in husks of gnawed hybrids
We've become, we've become the new man !
Devour our fathers, that's where it led...
Devour our fathers, that's where it led...
Far from wrong orright...
...in that baleful light !
Far from wrong or right
Far from wrong or right...
Right... right... right... right... right... 
				

And I Have been brought to this place
For pain Again.
And the cables
Replacing body-sprigs
My bane.

The drugs quieten
My veins pulse red
Weaker fighting
Will not give in
My hope's not fled

This is just magic
I will wake up
See through the trickery
I feel this fervidly
What other options
Can I have now?
This is just magic
Let me wake up please'

And then
I did feel whole once more
Intact.
Not wracked.
But they're phantoms
Illusions than unman
Detract.

This is just magic
I will wake up
See through the trickery
I feel this fervidly
What other options
Can I have now?
This is just magic
Let me wake up please'

Abomination
Masterpieces
Flesh in clusters
Will not give in
I'll have release

How long
Have I been pinned right here
How far
The scar.
It breathes for me Genetic construct
Steel spar

The moments pass by
Will not give in
Last chance to view me
Till I'm spun back
Real origin.

intact...not wracked....
				

Acoustic

The more will be the fall,
The more is her face.
I watch my mother,
She's called Anthea.
She carries me down to my chair,
I hope that she knows I love her.
I'm able to love in spite of my difference.
I pose my hands on the keyboard,
She takes the other to support me,
To help me...
She takes me slowly to her study,
In front of the computer because I cannot use a pencil.
I pose my hands on the keyboard.
She takes the other to support me,
To help me! 
				

Paradise Lost'song

[Verse 1]
Stare at the dark foreboding walls
I turn and look away
The fear, it haunts me
While I sleep
(Sleep)

[Verse 2]
Now as life is torn apart
The walls, they lead the way
This tortured journey
Almost at the end
(At the end)

[Verse 3]
Look at time upon the skies
I turn and look away
The truth, it haunts me
Wake me from sleep
(Sleep)
				

Ange'song

Rehearsal 2023

Deepest night again?
Glued in recline
I know that now the narcotic recedes
Now I have to think.
I have to know the genesis
And why I am so bloodied
Movement is useless, and so is the squalling

I must free me from confinement
Wrench out these benumbed ducts
I have to depart from
This hiemal alcove
Before my mind self-destructs

Deepest night again?
Fastened to this chair
I reason that the chance to leave stalls
Quick! Before it abates.
Will there be an exit?
Where should or could I go?

Find what freedom costs me
Buried in the dirt
Else the tubes will swallow me
Smother me in hurt.
Find what freedom costs me
Escape is the goal now
Buried in the dirt
I'll crawl if I have to
Else tubes will swallow me
Now I have to live!
Smother me in hurt.

But then the seat betrays me
Rocking to and fro
It squeals out in protest
The earth looks inviting
Yes I know I must go.
Yet I know I must go.

Find what freedom costs me
Buried in the dirt
Else the tubes will swallow me
Smother me in hurt.